Listening

Apparently listening takes a ton of skill, a skill that my friends do not seem to have. I might as well be talking to a wall... I know I am right, and you advise me all the time and tell me what to do but you never listen to me when I have insight into your situations. Why do I even bother? You never listen anyway... It's so difficult not to be extremely angry and frustrated when you complain all the freaking time about stuff that can be fixed pretty easily, but no, you are incapable of listening to anyone else because you are so prideful. I'm so sick of being ignored. I don't speak just for kicks, I'm not even an extremely talkative person, when I say something it's because it's something that needs to be said, or something you need to hear. I don't care if you do not like me, but if that's the reason why you have decided not to listen that is just plain stupid. Even fools have good points once in a while. God can use anyone to speak to someone, so do not disregard what I say when I am saying the things you desperately need to hear. You're such an awesome friend (not). I'm there for you everytime you need someone, but when I'm crying and alone you are no where to be found... I am so sick of wasting time caring about people who do not give a crap about me.

I'm sorry

Sometimes, I'm sorry just is not enough. Actions speak so much louder than words, and when you've hurt someone with your actions, words cannot fix the problem.
Some days I just wanna sit back and drink a little bit.
Some days I wanna go out and just have a great time, forget about all the baggage I have... I'm working on losing the baggage, and healing from the gaping wounds on my heart. I've come very far, but there are certain wounds I can't seem to let go of completely just yet. Like Daniel. My best friend in the world... I wish I could explain the pain in words, it was like being stabbed in the heart in the middle of a hug... Worst feeling ever. I think I also still need to forgive Adam for breaking my heart, and for lying to my face.