When the time comes

If the time comes
What will I do?
How would I answer the question?
When all reasoning is gone?
When the blood is pounding in your ears? Heart thumping like it'll bounce from your chest?
Will I state death in the face and calmly say "yes I believe in God, and I will never denounce Him!"
Or will I cry and plead and sob and blubber?
Will I beg for my life?
Or will I stand strong in my faith?
I hope that when the time comes I will feel my body flooded with Gods peace, that I will find comfort in the end that I will not weep for myself. That I will say "Lord forgive them for they know not what they do." that I will calmly look at the gun or knife of whatever and that I will look in my killers eyes until I breathe my last. I hope I pray that's that's how I will meet my end, with feirce courage and calmness.
Lord don't let me choose my life over You.