My life

Screaming
Or dead angry silence.
I never know which to expect.
Walking on egg shells all day long.
Confusion
Anxiety
Frustration
Sadness
I'm not quite sure what to do or say.
Regret
Guilt
Shame
Loss
Lord please rescue me.
I need to feel You by my side
Cause I'm drowning in this whirl pool,
This whirl pool of hate that is my house.
God I'm so sick of everyone being sad and mad and bitter and cynical.
It feels as if hope is dying slowly in this home.
I can't help but hate the church.
More and more each day.
Bitterness
Cynicism
Where is the hope?
Where is the joy?
Where is the peace?
I have it secured inside of me.
I feel it still.
I just don't understand why
My dad is so furious and upright all the time
I mean I guess I do understand.
I'm just so frustrated and sick of this.
Of the angry tense silence.
The yelling the screaming
God hold me in Your arms tonight
I'm sick of being alone.