I wanna

Scream.
To make sure I still have a voice.
Laugh.
To make sure I know what happiness is.
Cry.
To make sure I'm still alive.

I want to feel like I exist.
Like I'm alive.
I wanna hit something
To reassure myself I am real.
I wanna feel my muscles flex in anger
Or hate
Or adrenaline
I don't care
I just want to FEEL