God Help Me

I'm tired of being the only one.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of not having a friend.
A real friend.
A best friend.
Someone close by.
Someone I can count on
Someone I can trust in
Someone real.
Someone else who really loves God.
Someone who does have morals and values.
I'm so sick of fighting this uphill battle alone.
It's made me strong, yes
but I can only take so much...
Lord help me...
You didn't make people to be on relational islands,
but that is where I am.
and it's not even really my fault.
I didn't choose this path,
well I guess I sort of did,
when I decided to follow You.
I just don't wanna do this alone.
I have nobody to talk to about You.
I wish I had somebody to talk to Lord.
Someone that cared about me.
Lord I know I am not entirely alone...
only because I have You and my parents.
God I'm so sick of being put down because I don't have a boyfriend. I chose this. I didn't WANT a boyfriend. That doesn't make me less of a person. I'm so tired of feeling degraded because of it. God... If I wanted a boyfriend, You know I would have one. I just want a relationship with a guy that loves You first. I want a guy with a sweet but strong heart. Lord I know You are preparing me for this guy, I just... I'm lonely Lord. I know I'm helping people around me, and I know that I'm inspiring other people, but sometimes the only inspiration I can get is from nature, and from reading Your word. Lord I know that that is good, I just wish that I had somebody. I know that Lauren loves me, and is always there for me. But she doesn't live anywhere near me, and she's got a life of her own. I can't tell her everything I want to. I'm scared out of my mind to tell her half the things I've done. She is the only one I have. She is the only "true" christian friend I have. Lord, why? Why have you left me on this deserted island? Everything happens for a reason, and everything will work for good in the end, but Lord, that doesn't mean it hurts any less now. Lord, I have no idea at all how I am going to make it through the next month or so left of school. I need out so badly. I need out FAST. I need You Lord. Don't leave me. God help me to feel your arms around me, help me to know that you know EXACTLY how I feel right now. Lord help me. Fill me up inside. Give me what I need to get by. I know You will. Lord thank You for the peace You are filling me with. Thank You for all that You do. Lord You are so absolutely wonderful and incredible. I love You Lord. Lord I need You. Thank You for Your incredible sacrifice and testiment of Your love for me. Lord... I need You so much.