Logan v. Ben

So many thoughts and emotions flooding my being right now. Wondering if I should move on from Logan, and stay with Ben. What am I doing? I love Logan. So very deeply. He is my soul mate in almost every single way. It's been a year and a half since we broke up, and still I'm not over him. That says something huge. I've never liked a guy for that long before. Ever. I've never been able to not move on. I mean... I don't know. I just don't know. Am I waiting around for something that will never ever happen? Am I wasting a chance with an incredible guy? What should I do? I'm so confused. This is so difficult. I wish I knew what to do... I wish I knew if Logan was serious when he said he still had feelings for me, and that he missed me. I just I'm not sure anymore. I feel like Logan will never love me as deeply as I love him.. But at the same time, Ben will love me and treat me the way that I always wanted Logan to. I've waited a freaking year and a half... for Logan. Truly, I never once even started to like another guy because... Deep down, I just, I knew, I always wanted Logan. I can't seem to let go of him. I want him to be the one I walk down the aisle to, the one I give everything. The one I have children with. The one I laugh with, cry with, and love for the rest of my life. Is this something that's possible? Or should I pick myself up, give myself closure, and move on?